Monday arrived after a turbulent weekend – My dh’s birthday, Mother’s Day, four children who seemed hell bent on making the decibel level rise to noxious levels, just to torture me for their amusement. Yet here I sit, pondering life and choices. There are moments when I believe in fate, karma, past lives, reincarnation, soul mates, bonds etc. Then there are moments where I question my sanity, the world, life, and meaning. Days where I try to stay positive, upbeat, happy, when all I want is to cry for reasons unknown to me.

Do you believe in Totems? Lately, this past month, I’ve seen this Peregrine Falcon. (This is a photo from the internet, but the same coloring as the one local to me)

This is one article I read on Falcon totems: and holds true for what I am going through. (Just thought it was interesting, and I’d share)

The Angelic Shaman Totem of the Falcon almost always refers to the Falcon’s meaning of a past life connection and protection. Expect to meet someone from a past life that you have a strong connection with. You may have been sister, brother, mother, father, friend or foe in past lives; whichever the past connection it is time for your souls to work things out.

Falcon medicine also brings and suggests swift movement, mental agility & higher vision over all of the BIG PICTURE. Way back in history the Falcon originates as an emblem of the SUN, thus falcon medicine promises success, victory and rising up above a situation as so does the rising sun. The falcon also represents Archangel Michael as a sun symbol.

The Falcon is king of all birds & can also suggest a huntsman, or the Germanic sky-gods Wodan & Frigg ~ also symbolizes the trickster Loki.

The Falcon can be considered a warlike symbol.
Falcon medicine promises ‘animal totem visionary ability’, wisdom and guardianship of your visions.

Falcon medicine also indicates an awakening of visions that may lead you to your life purpose or an expansion of your life purpose as in developing unseen gifts you may have learned in past lives.

The Falcon almost always carries a message of transition and change through soul growth and healing – perhaps in your craft, work, hobby, residence, sensitivities, new level of talent, new gifts of spirit being brought that will change you.
Falcons hover in slow motion over their hunting grounds & are also very patient to sit for hours watching out for prey. Once the prey has been spotted the falcon will move swiftly towards its prey.

Falcon medicine asks us to use our mind in seeing our best move BEFORE we act at an opportune moment. It asks us to focus on precision in our decisions with strategy towards building our dreams. Sun symbols like the falcon often represent dreams that we are very passionate about in our heart. Dreams that make us happiest that maybe we have not manifested before. Spirit sends falcon to ask you to take part in your own dream by researching and planning strategy as pursuing a hunt.

The Falcon shows deepest of majestic mystery… the grace to fly alone with the dignity of knowing that not all men & women know all facts on Earth so they may not understand the solitary flight amidst the highest spheres. The falcon whispers of old secrets of our soul…

http://angelicshamanministry.com/2012/01/28/falcon-angelic-shaman-totem/

I question everything. I constantly wonder. There have been choices made in my life, by me, and by others, that I can’t explain or control. That I can’t define or make sense of.  So, I sit here staring out my window into my front yard, happy the trees are finally turning green after a long and cold winter, yet I am filled with a an inner flux. A discord. I feel disconnected and disjointed. I’m not sad. I’m not happy.

I wonder what prose I will write today.

Perhaps a new story about a Falcon.